I made an appointment with my GP for next week (her first available) because I can FEEL it.
The insatiable fatigue.
The headache just behind my eye, that wraps around the back of my head.
The extreme hunger, followed by the too full feeling, followed by the strong desire to vomit - all without having eaten anything.
The brain fog, never alleviated by either sleep or caffeine. The losing my train of thought mid-sentence. The constant closing of my eyes to try to center myself and recall what I was trying to say.
The sighing and the yawning - constantly - thereby giving off the impression that I am either completely exasperated or totally bored.
The pressure in my chest that makes me feel like I can't take a deep breath.
My body is gearing up for an anxiety attack. This has been going on since last Sunday. The longest I have ever "geared up" before now is 3 days. I am totally freaked out because I don't know when or where it will happen or how long it will last.
Don't tell me that being anxious about being anxious doesn't help me be less anxious. I know that.
So I breathe, as deeply as I can.
I sleep (I'm averaging 11 hours per night this week).
I am trying to maintain my routine even though I feel like I am teetering right on the verge...
...of completing losing control.